Nikki Sixx dishes on drugs

Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx writes in his new book that he used to spend five grand a day on...

Motley Crue bassist Nikki Sixx writes in his new book that he used to spend five grand a day on heroin and cocaine. Cha-ching! (Supplied photo)

JASON MacNEIL - Special to Sun Media

, Last Updated: 4:36 AM ET

The old adage states you shouldn't complain because there is always somebody in the world worse off than you are. And for the nearly all of 1987, Nikki Sixx could have been a strong candidate for being that global somebody.

While having all the rock star riches and luxuries, the Motley Crue bassist also had a $5,000 a day drug habit, one that is vividly chronicled in his new book The Heroin Diaries: A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star.

"That's how I communicated," Sixx says during a promotional stop in Toronto. "I had to or I would go crazy and even as I was going crazy I had to write it down to see if what I was seeing and hearing and feeling was real.

"Cocaine was really the biggest downfall. Heroin you can maintain, sadly, but cocaine you start getting into the amounts of freebasing and mainlining you go into a whole other world of insanity."

The 400-plus page book, written in part with journalist Ian Gittins, is a brutally honest look at Sixx's hellish year, one which saw him overdose and be declared clinically dead at one point while Motley Crue toured behind its Girls, Girls, Girls album. The book also features recent interviews Gittins did with band mates, friends and family members, interviews Sixx says pull no punches.

"They would say things like, 'He was undependable, he was a bit of a dictator when it came to the music but I love Nikki,' " he says. "I'm like, 'That's a f---ing waste of my time!' Let's get into the meat of it and get into it. Ian got in there and really pulled out what was going on and peeling away all the stuff that's going on now."

Sixx says he decided to release the diaries as a means of helping others with various addictions and issues. Proceeds from the book, which recently hit No. 7 on the New York Times bestseller list, go to Covenant House and The Running Wild in the Night Foundation, the latter he founded to help young runaways. But the musician says he's not about to get on any soapbox.

"I'm not trying to be a preacher or an evangelist or anything," he says. "I don't want to be the good guy of rock and roll. I tell people if you drink it's your choice. I go out with my friends and they drink. I don't know how the hell they have one glass of wine because I would have four bottles. I just know for me the path I have to be on to do that."

While Sixx has kept journals dating back to 1981 when Motley Crue was in its infancy, he says he rarely revisits those writings. He also says that while The Heroin Diaries is now being widely read, he primarily considered the 1987 entries to be portions of a lengthy suicide note.

"Without a doubt," he says. "I had no purpose to be alive. I had my music but my music was slipping away. There's a saying that some people have to die so the rest of us can live. I always thought I was the person who would have to die and I didn't care. Now I'm the person who gets to live so some people maybe won't have to die. It's completely turned out not the way I planned it."

To complement the book, Sixx released a soundtrack of the same name with a song devoted to each chapter. While it's unclear whether the band, dubbed Sixx A.M., will hit the road, Sixx is already working on a new book project which will be a novel.

On top of that, the drama of Motley Crue continues. Drummer Tommy Lee was recently dismissed by the group and a $20-million lawsuit filed by Sixx, guitarist Mick Mars and singer Vince Neil against one of its managers who also represents Lee is before the courts. Sixx however says the band is currently writing songs for a new album.

Life in hell often funny

Perusing through Nikki Sixx's The Heroin Diaries, one is treated to images of a crazed, gun-toting musician in his closet and shooting up in any vein that hasn't collapsed. Yet there are a few incidents detailed in the book which are quite humorous, including Sixx wanting to harm then General Hospital star Jack Wagner.

"Have you ever seen the newspaper cartoon Life In Hell?" Sixx asks. "No matter what this rabbit does, he always gets himself in the wrong situation. But he actually has a heart. He's not a bad guy and it's sort of like me. I would end up in these situations that were completely ridiculous and actually was able to look at it and laugh though.

"The part that makes me smile is through all the issues, there's always a problem with girls," he adds. "Whether you're in the throes of addiction or not I've always had issues with girls. I can pick the wrong girl. I can pick them every time. If we were having a party right now and the perfect woman was right there (points), I would pick the wrong one. It's like my pointer is wrong."


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